Friday, February 26, 2010

Present Day? I think so!

I finally got my rectangle baker and 12" skillet, which I'm sooo excited for!! After having a relatively stressful day yesterday, and thinking about starting another direct sales business (yes, I'm trying to do everything I can to stay at home!), this is a very nice surprise. I'm so excited to use both items! I know I'll be making tacos in the skillet tomorrow, but what to make in the baker? Hmmm.

If that wasn't awesome enough, to top it off (well, this actually came first today, but it isn't completed yet) I got my federal refund today, so I'm officially shopping for a MacBook Pro! I have a bid in with one guy near me and I'm looking around for other deals to try and save some money instead of buying it brand new. InshaAllah I find a good deal, I'm really itchin' to get my own computer again!

Thursday, February 25, 2010

Excitement and the dark cloud

First sign of pregnancy: allergies are back, in full swing. Man, my whole face itches including the inside of my mouth (big time) and my eyes. Alhamdulilah, I can take Sudafed and I'll try to keep it as low as possible, but I'm starting to consider getting rid of the cat because I think being pregnant, and I as found out - being on the birth control pill, intensifies my allergies to the cat. DD won't be happy. She loves animals. Hmmmm.

I grow in excitement as the news keeps sinking in. Next week, we're going to two birthing centers for initial consultations and to inshaAllah pick one for the prenatal care, labor and delivery. I love the idea of a birthing center instead of a hospital, and inshaAllah, insurance will help pay for it because I don't think we have an option if it doesn't.

There is the typical dark cloud though, hanging over our excitement and good news. Whenever something happy is going on for us, we are reminded that we are not followers of Jesus (uh, excuse me, yes we are.... we are followers of Allah and all the Prophets He sent down) and basically our good news is bad news to those that don't accept us. I think we're at excuse #70 for people raining our our parade, which means just a couple more times and they are done with me giving them the benefit of the doubt. I'm pretty fed up with all our celebrations in life being tainted by those reminding us of our religious difference. Don't you think you could just be happy for us, for yourself and the life achievements, for once? If not, leave. Go somewhere else with your sappy self and sulk where we are unaware. Ugh.

Sooooooooo, anyway, alhamdulilah for Sudafed... now too bad there isn't something for the very sore chest... it feels like someone is punching me in the chest when I go jogging! :)

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

The dream came true

MashaAllah, all that I had wished for, Allah granted. All that I have dreamed of lately, has come true, mashaAllah. I get to stay home, and now work from home as well, mashaAllah. I fear it all coming crashing down, but for now, I'm going to enjoy these gifts of Allah.

Our family is growing, mashaAllah. I get to be happy this time! I get to be excited! I'm allowed to be looking forward to our life ahead and I don't have people telling me how I am making a mistake and to somehow back out of my responsibility.

So, with this, we have to understand that things are going to be different than how our families expect. We are not baptizing our child, and we may not have a baby shower (not sure how to not have a baby shower... that's how people get half their stuff for baby, isn't it?), and most likely, just the knowledge that we're preggo is going to spark a "come to Jesus" speech.

InshaAllah the pregnancy goes well, I'm a bit worried about something going wrong, but at the same time, I was worried about getting preggo, and mashaAllah, we got preggo the first month we tried! Allah is the best of planners.

Bringing it back

I remembered today when I was reading someone else's blog, that once upon a time, I had a blog about my person life as well... I started it out in need of telling people my struggles with where I was in my deen, how work effected that, and about this super secret man that had no name... and now is my husband, mashaAllah.

I want to blog again about my personal life... to let it out, and not have to be so secretive anymore inshaAllah. So, here it is... I'm even opening up my previous posts by importing the, but I enjoy reading it as a blast from the (not so far off) past. SubhanAllah, we've all come so far. I am looking forward to the future, and sharing it as deemed necessary.