Life is good

Life is good. I didn't think that I would be content being a stay at home mom. I have projects that I'm working on like working towards a formal education in Islamic Studies, learning Arabic, working on my direct sales businesses, etc. Heck, managing the budget feels like a project just because we are in "pay off as much debt as quickly as we can" mode.

I always assumed that I would be really bored... and some days are more boring than others, but I couldn't imagine going back to a full time job (or even part time for that matter) and then trying to delegate tasks to my family. I mean really, I just don't think dinner, laundry, dishes and dusting is really going to start getting done all of a sudden.

Having a new baby on the way feels really exciting, but it feels like time is going by soooooo slowly!! I feel like I'm not far enough along to plan anything yet - I just sit back and let the baby bake until it's done. I'm sure that'll change as we start making arrangements and planning... I hope.

Only about one more month until Kira is done with school and we have a bit more time on our hands to do different things. We should be getting a good start on her ad-Duha lessons by then. I'm thoroughly enjoying watching Kira learn and grown within the folds of Islam and allowing her to teach me as well. I think she really enjoys that. We can all learn as a family, which I enjoy. I would love if we all sat down for studying together, but I think that's one of the things Moms just like to do and the rest of the family is like "ok, yeah, whatever."

I've also realized I really dislike motivating people in things I find are important and necessary. I feel like they need to come motivated with their own reasons and I'll facilitate the learning. Hm, I think I need to get over that and find a way to motivate.

Why wait?

You know, I've found so often in life that when I really, really want support from someone, anyone, it is so hard to find. I start waiting to do what I long to do, waiting for someone to tell me, "It's a great idea" or something of the like. Yet, I keep finding that no one is there and I just have to make the decision to do so myself. I have to lead the way and when I'm done, or established in my decision, I normally get the support I wanted from the beginning. Not always, but if it does occur, it is normally far later than I would like.

Lesson learned? Well, stop waiting for people. People are lazy and pessimistic. People only do what you force them to do half the time... especially if it wasn't their idea in the first place. Some people are all too ready to tell you how you failed - thinking they are providing you valuable information. Others don't give you any negative feedback and are "yes" people. I guess you have to listen to both and balance them. In the end though, it really is only up to you. If people support you, great, but don't count on it.